My decision to homeschool wasn’t an easy decision. I always believed that children deserved to have outside influences, outside friends, and the socialization that came with attending school . My daughters loved school. To be honest, I loved that they attended school. It gave me a break!
Now, I know that a lot of mothers will not understand my feelings but I’m sure that there are a lot who will. I am a “Mama” (as we say in the South) and I love my daughters more than life itself. BUT, (Dr. Phil says that a “but” erases everything that came before it) I felt like I NEEDED to work to have some “me” time.
It’s not that I didn’t like my children, instead it has always been that I didn’t consider myself “maternal” enough to stay at home with my girls. They aren’t terrible, in fact, it’s quite the opposite. It’s just that staying home with them on a Saturday and Sunday drained me. I have always felt short tempered with the normal “I’m bored” comments and the constant “Quit looking at me” arguments they had between themselves.
On the weekends I found myself wanting to just chill out and they always seemed to want to do something extraordinary. I wanted to nap and they wanted to play. I wanted to read a book quietly in my room, they wanted to tear the house apart. You can see where this is going….
To stay home with my children on a daily basis seemed like giving up on my “life” as an independent, productive adult. I love to talk to anyone who would listen. (My girls don’t like to listen. They also like to talk… nonstop, about anything, to anyone who will listen. I guess they get it honestly.) With an impending psychology degree, I always pictured myself being interviewed in my home, via a halfway crappy live video stream, by Matt Lauer on the Today Show about the newest psychopath. That was my dream. There was no way to do that from home… my kids would wrestle their way through my segment, demolishing the beautiful backdrop I created, and I would lose my cool which would cause the cool, calm, and collected Matt to freak out just a bit. I could see it now…
Here I am, obviously blogging about homeschooling so I guess you know how the story ended… I am going to homeschool. Big surprise! The reason I started homeschooling wasn’t because I just suddenly decided it would be a great thing. It started because God planted a seed in my heart.