My intention of this blog was to journal the feelings, emotions, and lessons I’ve learned with homeschooling. As with every project I start, I started but I didn’t finish. I wrote an opening blog but never any follow up blogs. Today is going to be different!
This morning, while checking Facebook, I read a post from Half-A-Hundred Acre Wood. It was one that Brandi drug from archives to remind us all about the importance of just “being” good parents. In “If You’re Not Sure You Measure Up”, Brandi discusses the importance of understanding that it’s OK not to accomplish everything we plan for our homeschooling venture (and she even reassures us that it’s ok to have a messy house by including a picture of her own- WTG Brandi!).
While reading this touching blog, I had tears (and no, I’m not a crybaby normally). I had tears because I’ve spent my girls’ entire lives wondering if I’m good enough. The Bible asks us to be slow to anger and slow to speak- and I’ve managed NOT to accomplish either virtue. Good mamas keep clean houses. Good mamas don’t yell at their kids. Good mamas get up in the morning in plenty of time to cook their kids breakfast before school. Good mamas plan the best birthday parties. My house isn’t clean, I yell way more than I’d like to admit, I would roll out of bed with just enough time to make sure my girls had brushed their teeth and hair before taking them to school, and I’ve been known to pay my kids NOT to have a birthday party.
My friend Samantha cooks a full meal each night and cleans baseboards for fun. My friend Katy goes to bed at 9 p.m. and gets up at 5 a.m. just to clean her house spotless before work. My friend Amber is so organized she’s never been late on one payment and she knows exactly what’s going on in her home… I’m completely opposite, to the point where she didn’t think I’d be able to homeschool because I am WAY too unorganized. (And, since this is our first year homeschooling- the jury is still out!)
Brandi’s post made me breathe a sigh of relief because it gave me hope. I have hope that my children aren’t doomed for failure because of my shortcomings. They will succeed even if they ate an overly well done waffle for breakfast or skipped it all together.
What I’ve realized more than it’s ok to be imperfect is that I shouldn’t have to rely on a fellow homeschooler’s blog to reduce my feelings of inadequacy. I should KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt that I’m how God made me… shortcomings and all. Read the following words from Brandi:
Yes, we all strive to be better moms, but let us not forget the moms we already are. God chooses to use us even though we’re not perfect. And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness…” (2 Corinthians 12:9). His strength is made perfect in our weakness – in our every imperfection – in every mistake we make as moms. We are covered by God’s infinite power, love and grace!
Why do I need someone else to make me feel adequate when the BIBLE (the only real self-help book I need) has told me a thousand times that I AM adequate, I AM enough, and my life is the journey HE wants me on?
Thanks for reading,